My best friend's flatmate has a weight scale attached to her bathroom floor.
Naturally I stepped on it.
Last week I was 53, relieved.
That day I was 4 -
more!
Near 60!

Was not good.
Do you understand?

I spoke to the experts.
They swore by exercise, exercise, exercise.
I exercised.

I whined to my sister.
She lived on vegetables, vegetables, vegetables.
I vegetated.

I practised these things diligently.
Both arms grabbing from either end
Every piece of sound-good advice.

Oh I sounded good!
Eventually.
Then I was hollowed.
My materials exposed.
Gutted like tempura,
Battered like a fish.

Then the nakedness shown-
Everything exposed.
I was running
on
empty.
Every
thing
exposed.

Therefore go and make disciples of all nations,

Share your food widely, greedy!

baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit

...because it's the only way to truly be alive

and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you.

... exercising every way, every how

And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.

... knowing our nakedness and shame is nailed to that cross.

Be bold. The Holy Spirit is with you!

He sits enthroned
Above the circle of the earth
And its people are like grasshoppers.

He stretches out the heavens
Like a canopy,
And spreads them out for his people to live in.

He brings rulers to naught
And the princes of this world[?]

To nothing!

Now, doubt-free

Before even setting foot on the plane to Korea, I had so many doubts about the validity and authority of the Word. Although they were unwanted, my head could not come to terms with Jesus as an exclusive way to God, despite the verse:

Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved.
- Acts 4:12

However, my heart would continually beat for Jesus. I would scout out all the mature Christians I could get my hands on, requesting for spiritual food, more spiritual food, so that I would become so spiritually obese I would never be or feel unfulfilled. I had a more than sufficient amount for my soul to live on.

In Korea, I learnt in sum:

• Jesus didn't come to Earth to die and rise again for me to keep eating.
• He was serious about making disciples.
• Therefore, take this truth and honour his wishes.
• How selfish of me to be only fed and not spiritually cook to feed others!

When I stood in the Bexco stadium, I saw Tanzanians to my right, Venezuelans to my left, and those amazing, fiery Koreans before me, worshipping Jesus Christ with me. Initially I was so overwhelmed. I really didn't know Egyptian Christians existed. Nor Thai Christians, or Sri Lankan Christians. We may speak different tongues, run our societies opposite ways, prepare our food differently from each other, but Christ's love means the same thing to all of us. It penetrates all language barriers, transcends all ideologies, and defeats all matters of humanity.

How could I stand in the midst of 17,000 people from all corners of the globe (129 of them to be precise), and declare Christ as unworthy of my entire life?

God deserves it all, everything. He must take all the glory. We are so blessed to have the majority of our world's campuses with God's people firmly planted on them, for without this Christian presence, where would our campuses be? Unreached, desolate, without hope. I feel incredibly honoured and undeserving of this responsibility, not to say overwhelmed. God has chosen us to do his work. He is also gracious, enough so that he will use our imperfections and flaws to grow us and thus glorify Him, as he will rescue his lost children through the body of Christ - us!

I know it's been repeated to death, but I see it perfectly fit:

Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

- Matthew 28:18-20

Boo yah!

xx